January 29, 2014 § 1 Comment
Lately, it has been very difficult to spend time with God. It is the sitting in silence and listening which makes it difficult for me. So tonight, while feeling tempted to fall into sin, I asked a friend what I should do. He told me to turn on some worship music. I did as he told me and decided to spend some time with God. I proposed a question in my head. “What do I want to take a look at today?” Simply meaning… with all the areas where I struggle in, what do I want to offer up to God today? I have never thought of prayer this way, to dissect a part of my struggle and give it as an offering to Jesus. Memories flashed through my mind of my desired goal to be more confident and faithful in myself and in the Lord. So, what did I offer up to God today? I will tell you.
I offered up myself to Him because I lack self worth. Self worth has been a major struggle of mine throughout my life. Again and again, I have to give my all to Jesus as I sometimes forget and lose myself within the patterns of this world. I will weave these passages into my soul, so that I will be made up of truth instead of lies.
Early on, I was looking through some verses in the bible which reflected self worth and three passages spoke out to me.
1) Psalm 139:13-15
For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
2) 1 Corinthians 10:13
No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it.
3) Romans 12:2
Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.
Highlighted in blue were the words that spoke out to me. Words of truth made to lift me up, To encourage and become ingrained within my soul, so that when I do lose sight of who I am, I can look back to these verses with confidence and faith in the Lord. He will listen to me and provide a way out. He will comfort me and never forsake me.
I praise the Lord for this small breakthrough.